“Love is the impulse to embrace the innocence of life.”
- Matt Kahn
After two weeks of an intense (and painful) deep dive into where I’ve been holding conditions around my self-love, I smile at the freedom of the beginning of the release.
Dear Wise Women,
As always, I trust that our journey is unfolding as it is meant to. Believe me, I have had to dig pretty deep to access this trust over the past two weeks.
When we last gathered we explored ”the river beneath the river”, and it seems that this activated something that I have been intellectualizing for years but have yet to find the courage to fully reveal.
The river beneath the river…such a powerful metaphor. It is our true selves, our souls, the depths of the body, the depths of the earth, the current that runs deeper and truer, and pulls us from the surface of our lives into stillness. It is intelligent and full of power. It is the source of a love so pure that to feel it requires a full release of all we have even known about love.
Oh friends, I am in this lower river and I am naked, vulnerable, and scared - and yet I am held. Held by a love that I have never known. Held in my weakness, my fear, my doubts, my frailties. Held despite my imperfections. Held because of my imperfections.
And in the arms of this source of grace, I am finding the strength to courageously face another layer of wounds. I am seeing how I have resisted showing my weaknesses to those around me for fear that I won’t be loved and accepted. I am realizing that I have not allowed these same people to show me their weaknesses.
I am realizing how much shame I have been carrying.
I am ready to release and I am feeling the transformation, I am opening and opening and opening.
And, once again, spirit has led me to receive messages to guide me. Matt Kahn has recently arrived in my life, I am overwhelmed by the timing and poignancy of his teachings.
I share with you Matt Kahn’s words.
I trust that you will open to receive what you need. I trust in our circle, our safe and sacred space, for all to be accepted and loved exactly as we are as we walk this endless path together.
With endless love,
Patti
When I’m sad, I deserve more love, not less.
When I’m angry, I deserve more love, not less.
When I’m frustrated, I deserve more love, not less.
Whenever I’m hurt, heartbroken, ashamed or feeling guilty,
I deserve more love, not less.
Even when I’m embarrassed by my actions,
I deserve more love, not less.
Equally so, when I’m proud of myself, I deserve more love, not less.
Despite what I think, I deserve more love, not less.
No matter the past that I’ve survived, I deserve more love, not less.
No matter what remains up ahead,
I deserve more love not less.
On my worst day, I deserve more love, not less.
Even when life seems cruel and confusing, I deserve more love, not less.
When no one is here to give me what I need, I deserve more love, not less.
In remembering the greatest way I can serve the world, I deserve more love not less.
No matter what I’m able to accept, whomever I cannot forgive,
or whatever I’m unable to love for whatever reason, I deserve more love, not less.
In celebration of your true innocent nature, love doesn’t ask you to accept what cannot be accepted; it simply says, “Just embrace your own heart, and I will accept on your behalf.”
It doesn’t ask you to forgive what is unforgiveable, but simply says “Just embrace your own heart, and I will forgive on your behalf.”
It doesn’t even ask you to love what cannot be loved. Instead it simply says, “Just embrace your own heart, and I will love on your behalf.”
No matter the circumstances at hand, love ensures that everything is done through you, instead of by you. By embracing your innocence more than anyone has ever dared to embrace it, you find the parent you’ve never met, a best friend you never knew you had, and the lover who has been there all along, as the truth of what you are. Equally so, by making your own heart the object of your affection, you invite the truth of others to be recognized beyond the characters they’re imagined to be. With love as your guide, the uniqueness of all can be equally appreciated, without the pain of conflict dividing you from one another.
When your heart is open, you are able to notice that anything you are feeling is part of a healing taking place within you. Conversely, when your heart remains closed, the emotions you sense always seem to be viewed as barriers to your higher fulfillment.
- Matt Kahn, “Whatever Arises, Love That - A Love Revolution That Begins with You”